crystal-kamikara153

It's a cruel world at the moment. In 2016 I started a new job, at the end of 2016 I lost my job. Now I feel destroyed and as though I am being pulled apart from the inside. My body is filled with anxiety all the time. I break down crying a lot. In front of people I pretend I'm alright because why should they worry about me? They had as bad of a year as I did with close relationships failing and by being screwed over by the system of so called life. Would it be easier if I just ended it? For me it would but by doing that I would leave my love alone and broken, my mother and siblings in perpetual grief and anger. I hang on only by a threa

It sure has been a while since I have been on dA......hmmm what has happened with me in the past year? I adopted Moxxii, I went to QLD for a trip, I got a new boss at work who is just awesome!! I still have the same job working with children, I sprained my ankle (trying to sign up to the gym. THE IRONY!!!!) I have started painting again. Still not as much as I used to but better than none at all right? Hmmmm what else?......... I finally got the strength to see a doctor and get antidepressants for my depression. It got soo bad I broke down at work and could not function properly for a week until the meds kicked in. I am still with Dy

When I have been looking at DA and fav-ing peoples art and talking to them I have been on my phone and haven't figured out how to do journals on it yet. It is good fun actually having everything on my phone and not have to pull out my damn laptop every single time I need the internet or to do something other then text or call people. I have a pretty action packed week this week. I need to find a nice dress in Darwin for a wedding on Saturday :/ on Friday I have work then i gotta go to a dinner or something at my old primary school then going out clubbing with a gorgeous girl from Melbourne who last time when she was up she wasn't over 18....